Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Meteor Shower

The two photos above will not be able to comprehend what I had seen today with my own eyes.
Thank you for affirming it with me! Thank you for being there and having me to share it!
I am holding onto that promise!

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Cos I can't get you off my mind.
Cos you are on my mind.

Hehe... Just randomly felt like posting this... Watching this drama now, always making me hungry with the food they show on the drama...

I am glad!
I am going home!
The love-hate relationship of going home is here again!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

40days Prayer and Fasting

Matthew 5:17-18
But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face,
so that you do not appear to men to be fasting, but to your Father who is in the secret place, and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.

"Fasting in silent but rewards come openly."

I like that promise of God, especially now that I am in this 40 days journey. Today is the 25th day. Seemed like a very long journey, but somehow it didn't seemed all too long. Now I need to make sure that my heart do not grow weary and I will continue to pray and believe for a miracle to happen.

I know sometimes it is hard to push for something for an entire 40 days and at the end of the day, we don't know whether it will happen or not. The timing of God is the perfect timing, I need to trust in that and continue in what I am doing.

The promises of God, I need to plant them in my heart and them live them out!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012


I've tried, coffee fast, internet fast, etc, but not fast from physical food before.
Tomorrow is my first day, 12 hours, I am a little worried about how I am going to stand it.


Now, I need to pray so I know what to pray for tomorrow when I fast. Haha.

A song for encouragement!
I might continue to fast every week once after this!

Saturday, September 29, 2012


Somehow it came out top of my core values.
I think in this era, very seldom punctuality is listed as the top most priority.
It also shows how much I treasure time.

"Our dissertation module is 8MC that means by right we need to spend 20 hours a week on it, but since they spilt it into 2 semesters, that means we need to spend 10 hours a week."
One of my studiomate said to me after she met her dissertation tutor today for the first time.

Yeah, that is how they count the modular credit systems in NUS.
In architecture school, the design modules are very often or not, even more than 8MC per semester.
That means by right we only need to spend 20 hours per week on it.
And here we are every day and night, slogging ourselves away in the studio working on it, which also means that we spend more than 20 hours on it for sure, especially when it is nearing submission period.
This is also because we give importance and priority to design as compared to other modules.

Why do people nowadays always fail to be punctual?
I strongly believe that your allocation of time for something somehow proves the priority of that area in your life.

Then comes the bigger picture,where is GOD in the time equation?
God is never late when it comes to His promises, He always delivers them on time.
He never deliver them late. That is one of His promises because we are His children. We are important to Him. And if ever He is late, I bet we are not placing our trust into His hands anymore. Therefore, He is never late. NEVER.

If God is never late, we as His children, carrying His DNA, wouldn't it be appropriate to actually practice this thing called punctuality? As out of this small thing, it leads to some things bigger like TRUST, LOVE and etc.

So what is PUNCTUALITY to you?

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Okay, it's been quite some time since I last updated!
Nomad-ed for almost 1 month before finally settling down 2 weeks ago.
I thank God for answering all my prayers, and it always being more than what I ask for.
So much to thank God for, been living on faith for a period of time, not knowing what is going to pop up the next turn.
Thank God for friends who are always there.

I know, it will take some time to get use to the routine now.
Because, no hall, it feels so weird, the surrounding is so different.
Enjoying myself nonetheless, making new friends along the way and then taking things one at a time.
I thank God that in between I still manage to find time to meet up with people that matters to me.

Okay, that's all for now, so much in the brain till I don't know what to write out.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

I've been humming this song since this morning, the Indian girl next to me at the bus stop thinks I am nuts because I just keep repeating the same thing over and over again.

My God reigns, His love will never fail me.
My God reigns, He's ruling over all
In all my life
In every situation, I know.
My God is greater, my God is over all.

In CGM this week, during testimony time, I wanted to give my testimony. However, boldness is not in me so I ended up keeping it to myself. It takes a lot for me to speak in front of so many people.

During these tough times, I know I neglected Him too many a time.
Looking back at the past week, I don't even realised how blessed I am to have the people around me.
These people here in my life, it just seemed as if they took turns to take care of me and they are very willing to help me, even when I don't ask them, they just come to me with their help.

What more can I ask for? Sometimes, it is hard when I think about it, but I know, He is behind something that I have yet to see. Yet, He gives these people to me, to keep reminding me that He had indeed planned everything.

Your fears fear God.
And if God is behind you, what else are you afraid of?

Wednesday, August 15, 2012


Last Sunday, we went to The Ink Room for a while because WeeYang wanted to check out bibles.
So I ended up walking to the book columns as usual, looking at the cheaper ones as usual.
Then I picked up this book and read the blurb at the back. And I ended up buying that book.

At the back, it said this:-
' I am convinced that the reason the Holy Spirit has brought you to this book is this: You already know you need to pray........' -David Yonggi Cho-

Somehow, I ended up with the book instead of WeeYang with any bibles.

I've always known, my lifestyle ain't about prayer. Prayer lifestyle is something that I find hardest to adopt. These days, I find it even harder and harder to pray. Somehow, I find it so much more easier when I am in church. WEIRD but true. I know praying more 'confidently' on Sundays will not bring power to my prayers.

Life's been on the rocks since I decided to leave the room. The point where I know my Christian lifestyle would be so different, and God is doing a change inside of me. I know much prayer is needed. I tried to pray but sometimes looking at the situation, I don't even know where to start. I always ended up with super short prayer and then I will go and sleep, just like a routine, with no expectation at all.

And tonight as I was browsing through the book;
'Living your life before the Holy Spirit in gentleness, you will become accustomed to the Lord's abiding presence. The Lord's continually abiding presence will bring about 2 most important changes. The first is BROKENNESS and the second is SURRENDER.'

I know, I am not there yet.
I still have pride in me. And brokenness and pride cannot coexist!

I've let the Lord speak to me, then half-way I am shunning Him away because I didn't trust Him fully.
So where am I now?

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


Conviction of the Holy Spirit.

I've been living my life according to the law. Never breaking them well maybe except a few parts here and there when I was in school. Rules are meant to be broken anyway!

But this time, I'd made a decision, a decision that will benefit me in ways that will also lessen the burden of the people around me; mostly financially and convenience. I was pretty sure that it is the right way, I made myself believe that it is the most correct way. Well, it made a lot of sense and it is just one year period, I can go through it.

Then, one night, the night before I shifted, the Holy Spirit convicted and struck me hard.
The bus trip back from CGM, I was reminded again and again of how He had been providing for my family and I all these while, so why am I not trusting Him enough this time?

10 years in church, I've been taught to live out the values of Jesus.
For me to live like a illegal immigrant in NUS ain't what He have in mind for me.
If I can't live right with the physical law, how am I going to live right before Him?
What more, to be a witness for him in this place call Earth?!
So much for being more and more like Christ, I am certainly not going that way when I can't even tell people where I am staying.

Pretty much that night, I struggled in my own head and heart.
Made a decision that will keep me homeless for a time being but I know He won't keep me homeless for long.
Maybe a decision that most of my friends wouldn't understand but at least, my family thinks it is the right thing to do.
Maybe a decision that will keep me tight on my budget for a long long time, but at least, I know somehow whatever I need will come through somehow.
Maybe a decision that for now I think I am crazy to make, but when I look back in the future, I will be glad I made this decision and made Him proud.

Now, all I can do is:-
He will indeed provide for me at the right time, and at the right amount!

Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Greatest Place

Today, when I saw this video in service, the tear gland just went out of my control.

At the beginning of this year, I started to slowly realised how much the people in CHC meant to me.
Today, I realised how much the entire CHC itself meant to me.

It's been almost 4 years since I last stepped into CHC.
I've been through so much since then, growing up, knowing people, becoming more mature, getting out of my comfort zone, managing all the things that are thrown at me.

I've never really thought this church will make so much impact on me.
Besides, I've been to church back in KL since I was..erm..12?
To me then, church was nothing more than a place, I go every Sunday, without expecting much.
When I experienced God, it's good.
When I don't, it's okay.

Now,church is more than a place of praise and worship.
Every week, I look forward to it, knowing and expecting something great.
And without fail, I get something.
The people, the warmth, the family, the auditorium, the pastor.
I can feel the authenticity of GOD presence in this place.
Week after week after week, the manifestation of His presence gets stronger and stronger.

And it is then, I know that this is indeed the greatest place I've found in Singapore!

Sunday, June 17, 2012

What's beyond the word ARCHITECT?

I was reading this book,  "Put Your Dream to the Test" by John C. Maxwell and this portion of the book stood out. Maybe because it relates to my profession, maybe because it is a part of something that I can relate to in person. Quoting the whole chunk:-

Pastor, writer, and editor Ed Rowell says, "A dream is a better future in need of an architect who will show others how to make it a reality" If you are a leader, you must be the architect. You must IDENTIFY THE DREAM and be able to draw it, NOT ONLY FOR YOUR BENEFIT BUT ALSO FOR THE BENEFIT OF OTHERS.

One night I had a dinner in Dallas with an architect named John Fleming. He told me, " If you're an architect, you can't start building until you've finished it." By that, he meant that if you're the visionary-the leader- you need to know the end before you start leading the team. YOU HAVE TO SEE IT. If you don't, your team will never be able to fulfill your vision.

So far, in my 23 years of life, the greatest thing that I have ever did was to lead Raffles Hall Sets Team 2011/2012. Never in my life have I imagined myself leading a group of about 25 freshmen, doing the things that can only be imagined in that short time frame.
All these built by a group of 25 freshmen who are getting used to university life, trying very hard to get a grip of hall life and disastrous time-management. All done in just 8 weeks!

I thank God for the vision He gave me, the confidence to do it.
I thank God for the courage to stand up and take the leadership position.
I thank God for showing me how to make sure that my team is on the right track.
I thank God for putting the right people in my team.
I thank God for putting the right people in my life to encourage me.
I thank God for letting me see the end product of the vision He gave me before anybody else did.

Thank you.
I know sets was almost a year ago. Yet, reading this passage from the book and looking back at this period of my life, I know it is real, not just another passage that just sounds great. I know it's the TRUTH.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

I thank God that I am rooted in Him, I am rooted in a church.
Because, it is these that keeps me sane when tribulations come my way.

Ephesians 3:13
Therefore I ask that you do not lose heart at my tribulations for you, which is your glory.

Hebrews 12:7
If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons, for what son is there whom a father does not chasten?

Colossians 3:14
But above all these things put on LOVE, which is the bond of PERFECTION.

When we are faced with tribulations, see it as joy.
For it is through all these that God will be able to reveal Himself to you.
To strengthen your characteristics, to mould you to be more like Him.
At the end of the day, it is LOVE that conquers all.
Therefore do all things with LOVE. For love is the bond of perfection.
LOVE. It kept me going. Giving love and being loved.
Thank you for the love, that You are even willing to die for me.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

How I Love You by Planet Shakers

Jesus I'm in love with You
Speak to me 
Whisper Your words of truth
Take my heart 
Won't You make me new
Jesus, how I love You
How I love You

How my soul longs for You
To be with You 
Adore You
Nothing more I want to do
Than to sing to You

Today, I rushed back to attend service after my plane landed at 9.40am at Changi Airport.
I told myself I will be there at Suntec no matter how late it is, or how late I am going to be.
The things I've been through the past weeks, I thought I was going to go crazy by the time it ends. I've not been anywhere or seen anyone else the entire month except for the people that I had to. I was practically in my own little bubble. Taking in all the emotional breakdown pretty seriously. I thought I was just going to go through everything alone because nobody understands the misery that I am going through.

The love of God is indeed powerful. A lengthy service, half the time, I was hoping that Ps. Kong will finish with all the church history, I don't want to listen to all that today.
Somehow, by the time it ended, I am reminded again why do I always go back over and over again to my very first love. It is indeed unforgettable, and most of the time, it is this love encounter that kept me in church, keep me pushing through. Thank you, God! Now I have more confidence to face the world, and to shine your love to other people.

Sufferings. Character. Faith.
Count your sufferings as joy when you are tested because when you come out of it, you will come through shining as gold. AMEN! -Ps. Kong Hee-

Tuesday, March 27, 2012


Why continuum?
Yeah, we tried over and over again to express why continuum, but apparently it is not getting across. Or is it whether really we don't have a backing to why we are doing continuum?

In school, somehow, no matter how hard I work, it just seemed as if everything is not turning out right.
No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to get my point across to my tutor.
Maybe it is really how shallow my group's thinking is or it can just be how we order our presentation.
How irritating.
No matter how we arrange it, it seemed to be wrong all the time.
CONTINUUM, it can be really common, or it can be really complex and exciting.
No matter what, I will still try my best to bring it out.

But somehow, everytime after talking to her, it feels as if I am not deemed to get anything right no matter how hard I try.
And this belittles my self-confidence, and hopefully, it will maintain at a certain optimum level until the end of the semesters, which is in another 3 weeks.

No, I am not letting her make me reach this state. I am gonna do more stuff, to increase my confidence, to hopefully, end the semester with more confidence than when I started the semester with.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Been a tough week plus.
Going back and forth from Singapore to KL and vice versa.
The decisions to go back and to come back. It's difficult.
But, I should thank God that my home is just 5 hours of bus ride away.
Now, he is in the ICU, after his operation yesterday.
Thank God, for always being the Provider and making sure that Jason is under the best hands.
The tears in his eyes yesterday, showed what a brave and courageous boy he is.
I can't imagine what he was feeling when he lay there in the operation theatre waiting to be sedated.
The thoughts that run through his head.
Sitting there in the ICU, he could hear us now, but couldn't give much response as of yet.
A good progress since he came out.
Now he need all the rest he can get to recuperate.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Today's praise and worship is phenomenal.
The songs choice, it tell us the journey of who God is to us as we mature in Him.

No doubt, most of the early christian life, you take God as your friend, a friend who you know will always be there no matter what. The bestest friend you can ever find for yourself. Yet still, there is a boundary between friends. Well, making friends with God is indeed a cool thing =) .

Then, as you get to know Him better, be it through revelations and Bible study, you get to know the what He can do for us, and what He is. The promises He gave us through His word became our daily encouragement to get through our days.

However at the end of the day, whatever matters most is HIS PERFECT LOVE. He reassured me that He loves me, He will always be there for me. All I need to know is that He loves me.

Saturday, March 3, 2012

If God is a fruit, what fruit would He be to you?

Today, someone posted this question. It got me thinking. Wow, to represent God in a fruit. That is pretty difficult, well, it is very hard.

SOURSOP. Why soursop?
The first time I ate soursop, I remembered how it tasted till now.
I think I will always remember it. The weird turned nice turned addictive taste that it offers. The brand new exciting refreshed experience.
The endless amount of seed that is inside. The trouble to get ever single one of them out yet still wanting more.
The seeds represents every single trial that He will put you through. Imagine the number of journey that you will go through with Him. COUNTLESS.
And the end product of these journey? His values and characteristics.
Why? Because a soursop seed will indeed grow into a soursop tree and bear the soursop fruit.
A soursop seed can never grow into an apple tree.
As we go through tribulations with Him, He gives us water, sunlight and the right soil to make sure that we will bear the fruit of His care and effort.

SOURSOP is just a soursop to everyone.
But, my SOURSOP is special to me.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

The Lord's Prayer

As Bible Study started once again, I find myself questioning once again why am I doing this all over again?? It's like new believers' class once again, which in total, I think I went through twice in KL, for some reason which I can't even remember. Haha.

Today's lesson, the Lord's Prayer. Well, if you are a Christian, you should actually know this prayer. Don't know? Go and make sure you know it now!
I've always known the Lord's prayer, or I always thought I know the Lord's prayer.

BUT I've never seen it as a CHECKLIST of our spiritual journey with Him. I always thought of it as just a prayer, nothing but JUST A PRAYER.


From JUST a prayer to much MORE than a prayer. Just in 45mins.
Maybe Bible Study is not a bad idea afterall despite the little awkwardness.

Saturday, February 4, 2012


2-7mins, that is period of time that we are most likely to give into temptation. So basically, we just need to keep ourselves in-check for 7 mins at most...

Funny, it's the first time I actually heard someone giving us a time frame for when we are actually prone to give in to temptation.

2-7minutes, it do seemed really short.
What can we really do in 2-7 minutes?
What harm can it do to us?

Well, it is this 2-7minutes that will determine how we are using the next few minutes that comes after that.

The internet, is something that I know I can't live with.
I face my computer everyday as long as I am in my room, no doubt, I am glued to the internet.
In between working on assignments, I tell myself, 'BREAKTIME! A 2minute video won't do any harm, then eventually you find yourself, clicking from one video link to another video link. The same goes for manga, from one chapter to another chapter.
Now, 2-7minutes turned into more than 1 hour.
And what did I get from it? Entertainment, jokes, distractions and eventually guilty for procrastination.

It's as if you are sucked into a whirlwind pool where 2-7 minutes are no longer 2-7 minutes when you finally realised it.

This whirlwind pool, it might not be that bad if you use the 2-7minutes for something else, something that can feed yourself, both physically and spiritually.
During Quiet Time,the first 2-7minutes when you first start praying or reading the Bible, it is the most difficult time. Chances are when you go over the 7minutes time lapse, you are most likely to be able to concentrate and absorb more after that. Then before you know it, time passed by faster than you thought it will be. Same concept, but used differently, thus with a different result.

A short but critical moment.
It's either you  make it or you break it.
You choose what you want to feed yourself with.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012


Sunday, January 1, 2012


It's 2012 already.

What a way to start 2012, by attending church, being in the presence of GOD the first thing in the morning, declaring once again that He is indeed my first love. Thank you. Thank you for 2011, thank you for the coming 2012.

A few resolutions in mind this year. Looking back, I managed to meet some, I didn't managed to for some.
2010 is a year of friendship, local and international.
2011 is indeed a year of achievements, maybe not big, but to me, there are indeed achievements.
2012 will be a year of _____________. I will know it in another 12 months.