A lot came, a lot I went through, many people came and gave me support, and finally I pushed through what other people rate as the worst semester.
This semester being the semester after exchange from Korea, you bet it was difficult to cope up with the Singapore pace. The first few weeks was really just post-exchange syndrome where I tend to compare everything to Korea. So it was like, Korea this, Korea that, Korea this, Korea that while the rest of the cohort was getting busy with their project. The standard of the cohort improved beyond what one can expect in a couple of months. That meant only one thing, I need to step up this semester, by a lot!
With the dark shadow of Year 2 Semester 2, I told myself, it's okay, I will be able to do it a lot better this semester, I know I will, I know it is going to be tough to walk out of it but I told myself I will do my best and give my all.
Under Donovan this semester, really didn't know what to expect because I don't know anything about the Year3 tutors at all since I was away the semester before. The brief of designing a medical tourism hub in Chinatown really made me excited. I started with establishing a concept that I thought I can relate too.
The start was a rough patch. The process was difficult. It just seemed as if everything I did was wrong. Nothing is ever correct anyway. After the previous semester in NUS, I became so conscious about making a design decision. Why this? Why that? And then later finding out that I can't justify it myself. It's really hard.
Stress level this semester was beyond what I could handle. I don't remember buckling under stress but this semester, there were times in the semester where all I want to do was sit in a corner and cry my lungs out, and times when I don't see why am I doing the things I was doing. It didn't make any sense any longer. Tears would just run and sometimes I would just sit there spacing into thin air because my brain didn't know what is right and wrong anymore. It was just bad.
This statement is so true. This semester I really thank GOD for putting friends in my life. Friends that go all the way out just to make sure I am alright. Friends that helped me sustained all the way to the end of submission. Friends that are willing to spend their time and effort just to make sure I am okay.
EUJEAN:-
-He did things that were way beyond what a CG leader is supposed to do.
-I really thank God for him.
-Thank you for all the mini gestures of care that you took time to show and do. Thank you for taking the time out trying to understand what I am going through in school and hall.
-Seriously, I won't know how I could cope with the RIBA stress without his encouragement messages that said I can do it and I should sleep more!
-Now, because of him, I love OPTIMUS PRIME! Haha. I am eye-ing for an Optimus Prime figurine.
CHINWEI:-
-Someone who is there to lend me a hand in my project and to tell me never to give up.
-All I have to do is text him, and he will be more than willing to help me even though he is so damn busy with work.
-When I was not productive, he pushed me to think, sketch and produce because he knows I can do it.
-When I was at the verge of giving up my project, he is there to shoot all my boring ideas and then suggest how I can think it through in another way to make it more interesting.
-In the end, from hating my project, I came to love it more everyday.
-He doesn't even have a reason to go all out to help me but HE DID!
JEANETTE:-
-Her simple actions of texting me, short 'Fighting, ANNA!' or just MSN-ing ,'ANNA, how's progress?' tells me that I can count on her at any moment when I am about to have a nervous breakdown.
-Telling me that she is working all night too to finish her paper, and both of us having short chats online when we are bored of working, really help me to stay awake and work through the night.
-Thank you. Really really thank you.
-If BigBang comes to Singapore, let's go together okay?! Haha..
EEHIANG & JEREMY:-
-They helped me with my final model, beared with all my anal remarks, saw me through all the stress breakdown that I had at upper lounge, always trying to cheer me up when my face turned black due to stress, and always telling me to chill.
- I know, they too have their own version of stress that they need to handle. That's why staying at Upper Lounge really help because we are not just a bunch of people sitting down to mug and finish our work, we are indeed a FAMILY. A FAMILY that cares for one another.
-I am so gonna miss you two next semester.
-And after helping me with my model, all they asked for were CCT from Uncle Vincent eventhough I wanted to get them more. Helping but not asking for anything in return. That comes from a pure heart.
After this semester, I will be dealing with more of plants and public spaces as I chose to Major in LANDSCAPE ARCHITECTURE. I really do hope that I made the right choice.
I am looking forward to the next semester. Well, technically my next semester is my special semester which starts on 9th May, so I don't really have much holidays in between. I am curious about my next project. And next semester, I will be excited about the Sets department that I will be heading. Next semester will be a very challenging semester indeed, looking forward for it. Of course, the fun and not the stress. But I guess, stress is unavoidable right? Haha. I will just have to learn how to cope with it.
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