Thursday, December 8, 2011

Yr4 Sem1 2011/2012

A lot of things happened. Good. Bad. Fun. Not-so-fun. Seems that I've grown a lot lately.
I shall not go into the RH Concert- Happealy Ever After because I wrote about that right after concert ended.
Studio. It's the first official landscape studio I've had so far. How was it? I got to say I've been adapting. Slowly. With concert on hand, I got to say it was really difficult. My tutor treats us as a master student (technically, I am still in Yr 4), expecting a lot from us, a superwoman herself. Nonetheless, I tried my best. The results? Not as good as I expect it to be but not as bad either. I've known a whole bunch of girls plus a guy whom I'm gonna stick together until the end of Yr5, caught a glimpse of what landscape truly wants, still don't know how to make a nice landscape model, less procrastination, more objective and work more.
Hall. Concert aside. I've made quite a bunch of new friends, mostly my SETS members. Quite an outgoing bunch, funny, always making me laugh, well angry too at times. Being a final year is really weird, it seemed that we are always in our own little world. Final years sticking together with whoever we have left in hall. Things happened. Friendship strained. Some managed to pull back together some not. Maybe final year is the year where you can see everybody's true colours. Everybody is busy with their FYP while I am busy with my studio work while the Yr1s play and laugh the whole day. Irony but true. Thank you so much for always coming into my room unexpectedly, making memories that would bond us together. Thank you so much for asking me for meals together even though I am seldom here. Thanks for all the random ice-cream outing!
Church. This semester due to commitment levels in school. I haven't really been attending cell group meetings as often. Yeah, initially I really did felt really bad. I don't know why, but it just didn't felt right. I thank God I didn't let it affect me so much until that day in The Upper Class Retreat that I finally released that I shouldn't always feel short-changing Him because all-in-all, it is Him I am living for. Do not let anything pull you down, as long as you gave your best. I really thank God for S35. I think writing to church 3years back was the best decision I've made so far, because now I got a spiritual family here in Singapore. 3 years, not too long, yet not too short. These people had kept me in-check with my spiritual life. Thank you for all the craziness! Thank you for always being so supportive! Haha. Even though I know you guys don't really read my blog.

This semester, I've challenged myself a lot. Taking in things that I thought I can handle but turns out to be more than what I can handle. Time management is still in a mess, which I have a lot more to improve on. Stretching my limits, balancing my life. Social, academic, spiritual, physical, family. It's all about finding the balance and putting Him first no matter what. It's always difficult to step out of our comfort zone, but once you do, you will realise the things you've miss, and the satisfaction from the things you've thought you couldn't never do. This is so far the most satisfying semester yet!

Phillippians 4:6
Be anxious for NOTHING, but in EVERYTHING by PRAYER and SUPPLICATION, with THANKSGIVING let your requests be made known to GOD

Monday, December 5, 2011

The Upper Class

A retreat, a camp, a it whatever you want..Awesome time after exams!

I seriously wondered why in the first place I wanted to attend this despite knowing almost nobody there.
The first night, it was actually pretty awkward, walking into a place filled with strangers who bear familiar faces. It seems that my social skills are not working as well as it should.
I thought I will never really have to go through this again after I find myself a cellgroup here in Singapore 2 years back. All the quiet-ness, sitting down and observe more than speaking. Really brings back memories.

Thank God for super friendly people, a bunch of crazy,noisy girls. So comfortable with themselves. Loud. Funny. Friendly. It was nice to get to know them. Thank you for always looking out for me these 2 days, thank you for making sure that I am not feeling left-out. It really kept my heart warm, to know that no matter what, the family of God is really filled with love.

Got to know more people in church. I am glad I went. 3 years in church, I only know that many people. It's always good to know more people from the zone itself. That is half the reason why I decided to go for this.

It's a layback weekend, getting to know people, widen my social circle. They say it is from strangers that friendships are formed. I am hoping that the people I know here is the start of something greater that have yet to come. Besides the people, everything else was planned to be free and easy. The games weren't taxing, but yet still able to fit in the fun element, the sessions are casual, thus encouraging us to let go of ourselves, a time out of the hustle bustle of the city, a weekend where everything is simple and easy.

P/S: Been a long long time since I last went to any church retreat or whatever since I came to Singapore.
Those YC camps that last for a week. I do miss them at times. I can see the efforts that are put into planning all these. A simple few days that took the organisers months to plan!

Monday, November 28, 2011

Yesterday I passed by this shop which sells a paper pinhole camera. Made out of nothing but paper.
It actually reminded me about my project in Yr 2.
I really wanted to buy it. Deep down inside, my brain told me that it's too expensive even though I know I can afford it this time. I really do. But it ain't worth it because it is just paper.
Nonetheless, I ended up walking back without it. 

The photos it can capture are pretty unique. Maybe I shall sit down and make one myself one fine day.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Happy End

Well, the song is a little contradicting to what I am going to post but the tune is just too addictive and catchy. It's my blog anyway, so I get to decide! Haha..

Always attracting the wrong guys of the wrong crowd.
Something is wrong somewhere.
The right boy ain't there.
Falling in love is harder than one seems.
It's not anywhere, everytime, for everyone.

Everytime I meet my relatives anywhere, they will ask, 'So do you have a boyfriend now?'
Everytime I meet my friends back in KL, they will ask, 'So do you have a boyfriend now?'
Well, boyfriend don't just fall from heaven, handsome, nice and heavenly. Ha.
They don't just appear from the earth and say, 'Hey, I am your boyfriend! Well, at least I think I am'

I believe in waiting for the right one.
People around me are hooking up as if it's the right thing to do at my age.
I will wait. Wait for the right one to come knocking on the door of my heart.
Keeping it for the one while looking around for him.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Give Me Oil in My Lamp

Remind me of the time when I was a helper in Children Ministry.
How I miss playing with kids, hearing their stories, hearing how simple and sophisticated things could amuse them.

I am burning out soon. Please continue to pour oil into this lamp, oh God!
I know I need to sleep, but there's too much at hand for me to handle.
Too much to do, so little time.
Good graphics, productivity, efficiency, confidence.
I am not asking for more.

Thank you GOD!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Is it true that when you are stress, colourful things make you smile?
Well, at least for me, it does. Somehow colourful things remind me of the beauty of God creation.
If I am a white blank canvas, I trust that He will paint it beautifully and magnificently without mistakes.

Despite being in architecture school, where black,white and grey are prioritized, I still find myself drawn to colours. Somehow, COLOUR brings LIFE!

The whole world, as we experience it visually, comes to us through the mystic realm of COLOURS.
~ Hans Hofmann ~

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Time out to PRAY

PRAYER is the key to revival.
PRAYER is the key to your success.
PRAYER is the key to personal victory.

I ask you to PRAY. I ask you to PRAY.
I ask you a third time to PRAY.

PRAYER is the foundation of Kingdom of God.
Only through PRAYER can we carry out God's command in out lives.

~Dr. David Cho ~
  (Seoul, Korea)

Sunday, October 23, 2011


Somehow today, it felt so weird.
A place I feel at home the most, but it is also the same place where I feel left-out the most too.
Is it true that no matter how long you've been here, you are still counted as a foreigner?
Eventhough at times you feel so comfortable, yet there are times when you feel so out of place.
So paradoxical yet so true.

Sometimes I think I am too independent. Always doing things on my own.
Not willing to let anybody see the other side of me.
Always putting up the tough-everything-is-alright front.
Nobody is supposed to see me breaking down in stress.
Nobody is supposed to see the weaker side of me.
LET GO. Learn how to let go and let the people around me in.

A lot of friends around, but never really had a close one.
Sometimes, it's good, most of the time, it's not.
Maybe I have not been investing enough time into the relationships.
Maybe. JUST maybe.

At least, I know He is always with me. No matter where or when. Thank you.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

SET RHMP 2011/2012

 1.Initial meeting to explain the design.
 2. Sub-group working on their given piece. Small or big. Everybody have a part. Well, we leave our mark at the sets room too. Maybe we should all choose a part and sign on it permanently.
3. Then sometimes mid-way, we have to replenish our energy. They are super hungry ghosts that is around all year round.
 4. Almost there, now all we need is bring it through the door. TEAMWORK. One, Two, Three! UP!
5. After through the door, fix it all up while making the entire stage super messy plus Anna screaming the timeline. Haha.
 6. The final product!

It's been a crazy journey. Everyday all I think about is sets, well architecture too of course, if I ever want to graduate. With that giant scale sets, at first, I really thought that the not so big-sized me wouldn't be able to pull through. The number of breakdowns I have when the world was caving in,countless, but it is those times that made me stronger. Friends that kept encouraging me, members that are so cheeky yet fun to hang out with, friends that came all the way down to watch it. I will never forget the loud clap the audience gave the moment the curtain was opened. The feedbacks that kept coming back to me reminded me of why I agreed to take this up in the first place.

Thank you so much. My last hall activity. CONCERT. Now, I can proudly say that I was a part of the largest (2011/2012), medium-sized ( 2008/2009), and the smallest (2009/2010) sets Raffles ever had.

Friday, October 14, 2011

The day is finally here.
The day where all the shifting will be done.
Then the day after, we will be fixing them on the stage itself.
It's do or die now.
No matter how bad it can be, I know I will be able to go through with it.
Well, I am already proud of myself that I could complete everything.
My mum will be proud, my sis will be proud, even my friends will be proud.
A nice pat on the back to mark the ending.
Now the last lap, my body refuses to rest, so many things that I have to take into consideration.
I've been insisting that it wouldn't rain tonight.
Somehow something inside me convicted me that it won't.
I will still tell others that it won't because it is really something that is so convicted in me.
Thank you God for that conviction. Thank you for the certainty.
Now Lord, all I'm worried about is how to bring them all into the hall without destructing anything. Thank you for everything, Lord. You've been there, You are still there and You will be there.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


Thank you for being the bear, always there to comfort me when I am at my rock bottom.
Telling me how I can do it because I got the capabilities, because I got somebody really strong supporting me.
When I am at the verge of giving up, your texts reminds me that God is always there for me.
He is always behind my back, making sure I am standing tall.
All the texts come in the morning, making sure that is the first thing I read to start my day. It's really encouraging.
No tears wasted ;) u're transformer!

My strong upfront, everything crashed down. No more bubbly girl.No more everything is fine. No more everything will work out. Now, I am just a plain complainer who can't control her tear glands anymore.
A girl who is afraid that she is too behind time and couldn't catch up with anything. So weird to show my weaker side to everybody. Vulnerability.

You're blessed when you get your inside world- your mind and your heart-put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I smiled watching this video this morning.
Heartwarming. Love. Romance. Distance. Cuteness.
WongFu Production is really good.
A great video to start the day with. =)

Sunday, October 2, 2011

2 weeks to the actual day. The time limit, the deadline, everything is coming in.
But somehow I am pretty sure that it will be done, it will at least be up to my expectation.
The members are getting the urgency, I am going a little crazy but somehow, I am happy doing the things that I do because apparently, when I talked about it, I get all hyped up and I can't stop smiling.

The JOY of the LORD is indeed my STRENGTH.
I need a lot more to sustain me through the coming weeks. I am putting them into Your hands.
Thank you for members who are willing to sacrifice to make sure that things happen.
Thank you for the unexpected leadership quality I didn't know I have.
Thank you for less procrastination.
Thank you for discipline.
One thing I won't thank you for is the RAIN! Nah, I will thank you for RAIN too because at least the weather is quite good to work in besides the fact that I am always feeling like I want to sleep.

INDEED, YOUR LOVE IS HIGHER than what I could comprehend.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Today during service, the verse Nehemiah 4:14 was repeated.

Nehemiah 4:14
And I looked, and arose and said to the nobles, to the leaders, and to the rest of the people," Do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, great and awesome, and fight for your brethren, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your houses."

Twice in a week by 2 different people.
There must be something that I am not getting in the verse.
This is no coincidence.
This is not something that can be taken lightly.

Eventhough today's preaching about Arise and Build, somehow the thing I seemed to be building is not just financially for the works of the kingdom of God, but I am also building on the platforms that is in my life in order for me to use all these platforms that God had placed in my life to glorify Him. These platforms are tough to climb, tough to conquer, tough to overcome but time and time again, He reminds me that He will be there for me.

Mockery, intimidation, weariness in leading, and even when there are stress from every corner.
One thing I am sure of now, I am at the stage of WEARINESS and there is another 3 weeks to go.
But if I am to hold onto NEHEMIAH 4:14 and fight the good fight, I know I will end up winning it victoriously.

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never
forsake me in my weakness. 

I know that You have come down
Even if to ride upon my heart
To remind me who You are

Friday, September 23, 2011

They say that the things you love most make you laugh and cry.

It is so true.
Yesterday, sets made me sad.
Today, sets made me happy.

The teamwork that was shown. It's pretty amazing. That is what I always wanted to see in my members. Now that is SATISFACTION!

Most of the time, chasing after your dreams is not easy. The ups and the downs. When you are at your up, you will be so encouraged to move on. However, when you are at your down, you feel like giving up. Today's devotion kept reminding me that He will always be there for me.

Psalm 139: 5
You go before me and follow me. You place Your hand of blessing on my head.

Eujean asked me to read a verse the other day, explained it on the phone the context behind the verse, then only it struck how it relates to me now. 

Nehemiah 4:14
And I looked, and arose and said to the nobles, to the leaders, and to the rest of the people," Do not be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, great and awesome, and fight for your brethren, your sons, your daughters, your wives, and your houses."

Judah, building the walls of Jerusalem, it's so tough that even he complains of all the trials that came to him. And Judah usually doesn't complains. Then, the Lord reassured him that He will always be there backing Him up. Nothing will come between them.

To make the grandest SETS Raffles Hall had ever seen, of course the journey there will have its ups and downs. God is overlooking over this process, He knows that it is these processes that will build my character, He knows that somehow in the middle, I will start complaining but He still reassured me that He is there guiding me through, His hand guiding my every path.

THANK YOU for making me feel better and more confident.

Monday, September 19, 2011

A time to catch up with friends, and work and of course, SLEEP!
Concert is less than a month away. I am quite worried about it. In fact, I am very worried about it. All the emails that come in, no matter what day it is and what time it is had made me hate concert to an extent but at the same time still love it. Like what others always tell me, 'Anna, you must learn to let go! Trust others with what you gave them to do!' However, it is really tough, so I find myself taking it all in, and then realising that I am slowly collapsing inside day by day.
Yet, I am taking this opportunity to catch up with friends that I have no time for. Trying to arrange everything to fit in this one week. I know this week will fly pass and soon I will be in the normal semester timings once again. Then my to-do list will continue to expand.
This week, I shall let myself go to any random cafe and sit there for ages, doing what I love most- READ! Go to Baskin Robbins and get a cup of ice-cream, and READ or SKETCH.

Feels so long since I last DOODLE-d.
Where is my SUPERMAN?

Monday, September 5, 2011

CRASHED and BURNT this weekend.
Slept a lot. Slacked a lot. Well, comparatively a lot compared to previous weeks.
I guess it's a good thing since I seldom get to slow down and rest during the weekdays.
Satisfying week.
A crazy one ahead.


Thank you for being my encouragement. Ultimately, it's for Your glory.
I'l put You above the rest. I promise.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

From my heart to the heavens, Jesus be the center.
'cos it's all about You.
Yes, it's all about You.

Today during service, when this song was sang, something twitched inside of me.
I realised I haven't been putting Him in everything that I had been doing the past week.
He reassured me that if I learn to trust Him, He will help me in ways beyond what I can think or imagine.
So for the coming week, I am committing it into His hands.


Thursday, August 25, 2011

Tested today.
Reflected on it.
Knew where I went wrong but sometimes it is hard.
And he told me I am a people person.
A person who complains but with a certain joy everytime I start talking about it. So it is not really complaining because I actually love doing it. So he knows I can do it. Thank you for listening to me everytime.

Everyone is a genius at least once a year. The real geniuses simply have their bright ideas closer together.
~Georg Christoph Lichtenberg~

To lead a whole group? Well, difficult but I don't see it as impossible.
It's just something that I have not get a grasp on.
I know I can because I know He is always there for me.

Breakdowns sometimes are necessary because you realised then how much you really need Him.

Saturday, August 13, 2011


Well, the list goes on for this semester.
I know I need to do a lot this semester.
I am actually excited about it. A little worried as well, that is for sure
So yeah, so much to do, so little time.
Enlarging the extent of my tent as much as possible.


Tuesday, July 26, 2011

The Transformers character that holds a special significant meaning to me.
And I think it will continue to be for a period of time.
Optimus Prime, always reminds me that in everything that I do, I know I am here because He knows I am primed for it, He knows that no matter how tough it might become, we will be able to pull through with Him on our side.

Remember the part in Transformers 3, when Sentinel Prime was 'resurrected', Optimus Prime actually wanted to return the leader position back to him? It is in this scene that makes me wonder, after being a leader of the Autobots for so long, wouldn't it be so difficult for him to hand over his authority to somebody else so easily?Having so many Autobots looking up to him and listening to his orders for so long, from thousands of followers to none after handing over? Wouldn't everything that he'd done be a waste? I guess, the answer is simple: No greed, no power hunger, just looking at the leader seat as a chance for him to reunite all the Autobots and to protect the mankind.

Never thought that I will be a good leader because I am not a good leader as far as I know.
Never been taught how to take up leadership, but being in Singapore for the past years, I learnt to take up responsibilities, to challenge myself and to take myself one step above who I used to be.
Leadership, it is not just about having the authority and power, but it is about using this opportunity to impact the people who will be under me. A golden opportunity to be a person of influence in their lives. Not making them work for me but WITH ME.
Definitely a lot more to learn about leadership.
As a starting point, I am learning to lead with all my heart and soul.

Saturday, July 16, 2011


What is commitment?
Have you wonder why are people these days so afraid of commitments?

COMMITMENT in itself is a huge word.
When do one decide whether to commit or not to commit?
How do one decide whether to commit or not to commit?

Tonight, I was reminded of how my every commitment to God paid off,how very often when He gave me the choice  of whether to stay committed to Him or to walk on my own, I choose to stay on track with Him even during difficult times. And most of these times, I could see how it all paid off. I am thankful that no matter what, I am still able to stay faithful to Him.

Thank you for guiding me through. 
Thank you for teaching me the value of commitment. 
Thank you for letting me see with my own eyes that with commitment, I am able to grow more than I thought I would.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Kutless-What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you’re stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

An inspiring song. And it keeps reminding me that HOPE is the confident expectation that your desire will be fulfilled. My hope is in the Lord for as it is written in the Bible, with faith as small as a mustard seed, He can use it to move mountains. Thank you for answering all my silent prayers, those small simple ones that I ask for when I am on the bus, walking to school, taking showers or before I go to bed. Thank you for constantly giving me the hope when I am down and lost. Thank you for giving me the conviction that my faith is real and nothing is ever gonna take that away from me. THANK YOU! 

Hope that doesn't ever end, 
even when the sky is falling. 
I've seen miracles just happen,
Silent prayers get answered.

And it is impressive how this song can touch so man hearts. Everybody is taking from different part of the lyrics because it touches them. The same song but brings different meaning to so many people.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Hari Lahir ke-22

Bermulanya cerita bagaimana aku menyambut hari lahirku yang ke-22...

When to Bishan Park for site visit, I was supposed to reach Bishan at 9am, which is at the other end of the island, so I had to wake up at 6.45am and travelled more than hour to get there on time.
The weather was cold and nice to sleep in, that if I got the chance, I think I would had slept until 11am.
But there I was, under the rain with boots and safety helmets, walking and walking and walking from one part of the park to the other while the construction workers are under shelters looking at us. It just have to fall on Thursday, the day where I got class from 9-6!

 At Bishan Park, really this will indeed be one of the nicest park in Singapore soon!
A simple lunch turned 1st birthday celebration of the MLA Studio! Fish & Co always make me stand on chairs.

Yet, somehow despite being really really tired, I managed to drag myself for CG. I remember vividly, how I really really hoped that Eujean's house is just 10 mins away from NUS. What better way to end the day, meeting with the people that makes me feel at home here in Singapore. So lovely.
Super sinful mini cake from cellgroup. 
My birthday gift. Simple and quite cute to look at. It's double the size of my fist la!

Well, just when you think that is all. And I can finally sleep. Friends just decided to pop up, sing a birthday song and then more cakes. No wonder I am getting fat! Hall friends that share the same feelings of having to be in a foreign land that decides to make it really simple yet with love and care. 

After smiling at all the facebook wishes, I slept all the way until 11am the next morning. I was so so so damn tired but I have to say, I enjoyed myself and I learned to appreciate the people around me for with them, my world continues to turn at its axis, making sure I am alright! Just a simple, rainy and hectic birthday, but it is also enveloped with LOVE!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Home Sweet Home

A random trip back to Home Sweet Home.
No wonder we call it Home Sweet Home and no anything else because it is indeed Home is the place where everything is sweet as no where else can win the place where you grew up, the place where you see familiarity in every corner.
Eventhough it ain't perfect and the imperfections are still there to irritate me but it feels so good to be home.
The people, the relatives, the friends, the church, the bed, the TV set, etc.

A short 4 days trip.
A sweet and short one.
Now I hope, I have enough energy to survive for another 5weeks in Singapore before I head back here again, on official holidays before the real semester start!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Birthday Wishes

I've been thinking about what I want this coming birthday.
Yeah, I got physical desires that I want but not necessarily need.
There's the spiritual aspect that I know I would need to change in order to extend my tent.
There's the self aspect, that only I myself can help myself with.

1. Commitment
So when you've managed to keep to the commitment that you've commit yourself to the previous year, that means this coming year, you would need to step up to another commitment level to allow oneself to grow more. For with commitment, comes unity, and with unity, comes growth especially in group activities.For me, commitment itself is divided into several aspects, which are GOD, school,family,myself and friends. So higher commitment level this year comes with higher expectation.

2. Singapore
Seriously, I've been staying in Singapore for a good 2 and a half years and I've got to say, I know almost next to nothing about this tiny little island.Well, that is besides all the bad sides that I've observed.Time to look at the bright side. I've not even eaten Chilli Crab! OMG! Haha.I got a feeling that Singapore got a lot more to offer than all the strict rules and systems. I just need to spend some time, exploring the island, looking for the inner side of Singapore that I never know. Maybe we can start by a food trail,not around Clementi, that's for sure and with the locals.

3. Photography
This year, I am going to explore photography a little deeper like I always wanted to. The camera that I have now is really just a point and shoot, so I will have to maximise what my camera can do for me and then see what other opportunities and learn from experiences that I can get from out of all the photo competitions that I will be joining in the future. Then, I will get myself a better camera, and so on.

4. Landscape Architecture
For those who is still in a blur, I am currently majoring in Landscape Architecture. Something that I found myself being drawn to these days. This year, I would want to find out more about this special field. These days, I start to look at the landscape around me with more insight that I never knew I had. It is indeed getting pretty interesting. The more I scratch the surface, the more interesting stuffs I find. Let me use the whole 2 years in MLA to do my best and to get the best out of this short period of time.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I just realised I got a swollen knee!
I think it must be the fall I had on Thursday!
It did hurt a little today(Friday) and a little more on Thursday itself but it didn't seemed quite bad until now.
Somehow I am smiling to myself while looking at it.
It doesn't look so bad when both of my legs are bend.
But it does look swollen when I straighten them.
The assymmetry.
Maybe I should just hang them up and not use them at all. Lolz.

Okay, if by Monday it is still like this, I will go to the doctor. I swear.
Now, back to work! Well, I need the motivation to work! Submission is 5 days away!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Saw a Holga in a shop I passed by in Jurong Point the other day.

I stared at it long enough for the shop assistant to stare back at me, and wonder am I really gonna buy it.

Really want one. Always wanted one. A RED Holga camera!

The yellow is quite pretty too.

Yet, everytime I look at my bank balance, I don't know how long more could I survive.

I know I can somehow, because I am Anna Yap.

I know I need a part-time job, but you see, a job means I got lesser time for studio.

Sometimes, I think I can still handle both, it is just that I am refusing to step out of my comfort zone.

To me, money will always come the easy way, that is raining down from Heaven.

Maybe it is about time to make a change, at some point of life, changes come and make us better.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Today I was reading a book, something popped out and stayed.

Do what you SHOULD do before you do what you WANT to do.

Then it struck me that these days, it's all about what I want to do. What I should do is always left to the very end and then I will rush them through without giving any thought and effort into them. This is not the way it should be and not everything is based on everything that I want. Everything should be done to give glory to God.

I have a theory. It’s called the ‘giving’ theory. I don’t think our project was all about giving at all, there was also going to be alot of taking, I think we all realized that.

My theory about giving is that when we give, we will be given more. and we just have to accept that. so in receiving anything, we have to give, and these giving is distributed to everyone else and this giving thing just becomes really big and everyone gets something by giving something.

so I think, when the opportunity arises, just give…and give more than you think you can afford, and you’ll find that your needs will be met, and more…and you’ll find greater capacity to give than ever before…until we realize that with our own strength, such capacity of giving would be impossible.

Quoted from Tirza's blog. Made me think a lot too about giving. But I liked what I read.

Speak into the mountains, to move into the ocean.....

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Guardian Angel.

Just when you think you are too big to be homesick. That you should really get over being homesick after being 3 years away from home. You should really get used to be sick in a foreign land. God decided to send an angel down to be a blessing.

Well, who does these kind of stuffs anymore? Come on, you are really too nice to me. I don't deserve it at all, for being a complainer all the time, for thinking about myself all the time.

Thank you so much for providing such a comfy place for me in Singapore, thank you so much for letting me know that someone still cares whether I am alive or dead, thank you for coming all the way.  THANK YOU!

You know who you are, even though I don't think you actually read my blog.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Being sick in a foreign land, is the worst that an international student can ever experience.
Then the home-sickness will hit you like a pang! All you wish for is for mum to be there to make sure that you eat your medicine on time and to cook porridge for you and to tell you everything will be alright.

Sitting in the clinic all alone, waiting for my number to flash. How much better can I feel about that? Maybe I should just get myself a boyfriend, at least I won't feel so lonely at times like this. Lolz.

Haven't been talking to anybody, only the doctor in the morning.

Doctor restrained me from talking to much. Asked me to eat properly but then I don't even have the energy to go and get proper food for myself all thanks to the 'non-drowsy' medicine.

The throat is painful. The phlegm is clearing, my nose is starting to feel better. I can breathe normally again. But somehow the tongue feels funny.

I know of people who cares, but then why bother other people with my sickness?

I will get well after a day of full rest, hiding in my room, reading a book.

Well, people get sick once in a while. It always happens to me when I am back in Malaysia, it's just this time, I am here in Singapore during my holidays. LIFE.

Isn't this the kind of soup, those that is boiled with love and care, the best soup you can find on earth?
I sure hope I have one bowl right in front of me now.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Nikon D5100 Photo Competition Submission

Nikon D5100 Photo Competition Submission

Click the above link and then like the photo.
Who knows I really could win myself a DSLR.
I really hope so.
It would be my best birthday present then!

Today was rather weird.
I don't know how to describe it.
I loved that I was in church and how I felt the presence of God.
How He is there to embrace me. How everything felt so nice and perfect.
And then,.......
It's just a mixture of home-sickness, plus too much socializing plus some weird feelings.
But if I stay in my room, I feel lonely.
If I go out and play, I don't feel as if I am myself.
How weird, but that is how I felt today.

Well, today when I looked at all the kids coming out from Sunday School holding onto cute little papers with memory verses written on it. It really made me miss those kids I used to play with when I was back in KL. Those adorable 4 year old kids. Now, it is so hard, so hard to find time to do things I used to love.
It would be fun if I could just bring a bunch of kids for a picnic somewhere for half a day. Just submerged yourself into the world of the little ones.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Something popped up in my brain just now when I was showering.
Something pretty interesting to think about.

Did architecture turned me into a workaholic or the fact that I am a workaholic in the first place that landed me in architecture?

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

It's Vesak Day today.
It's a public holiday.
But somehow, a tinge of loneliness seemed to be kicking at the door.
Everything here seemed dead, abandoned and inhabited.
Well, I guess, sometimes this is the bad side of being an international student in a foreign land.

Cleared a portion of my sleep debt.
Gonna have some 'me' time today.
Then gonna go do some catching up with some people.
Then come back and do some work.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Working on these stuffs! Really fun to be outdoor, despite the terrible weather the past few days!
Walking on a railway, an active one, of course I am excited! Who wouldn't be? And who get that opportunities like this? Tell you guys more as special semester goes on!

GREEN IS A CLICHE COLOUR!.... Bet, my tutor won't want to be in Raffles where everything is indeed green!