I've been thinking whether Architecture is what I really want to do for life a lot lately. Maybe because my P3 Project for this semester ain't going smoothly. I worked the hardest this semester, I enjoyed the first few weeks of studio, but somehow, my intention in the architecture is not portrayed out. My scheme, my project, my intention and everything else seemed to be so blur that I can't link any of them together anymore. I am devastated after having desk crit with Peter today because I realised I don't even know what I want in the scheme that I designed! I don't know why I draw the lines? I don't know why I put the partition to be angled at that certain angle? I don't know why do I separate my spaces like that? Why is the stairs above the ground? Why this and why that?

I think Peter was quite disappointed in my progress but I'd tried my best. I think I disappointed Lilian and Peter both with my progress and my scheme, on how I can't relate it to my concept any longer. And I will continue to try my best until final submission which is on Wednesday.

And today, I got a very nice sms from Xiao Yun. Guess it came in at the right time because it really put a smile on my face especially after desk crit. I really thank God for her!

Nothing ahead of you is bigger or stronger then the power of God that is behind you!

Above are pictures of a few IHG games that I went and support for the past few weeks despite the submission dates and studio sessions..

IHG = Inter-Hall Games

Every game that I watched was so exciting, and there is always the adrenaline rush especially towards the last few minutes of the game.. It is always fun to cheer for your team..Yet, architecture sometimes suck all this away from me, because I can't afford the time to go and support every single match..

As compared to last year, this year the supporters do have their own share of excitement in every game.. You can see everyone screaming their lungs out for RH and during the teeth gritting moments when we are going to score a point keep everyone so uptight, that you can sense the tension in the atmosphere.. When our player miss a point, we will be disappointed as well but deep down inside we know that they will score it soon, when the opponent score a point, we are there to encourage our team, when we score a point, WE, the supporters scream even louder than the team itself.. The unity spirit is in the air, and I love it..

Winning has never been a part of RH for quite some time until the point that we, the Rafflesians, have the mentality that it is okay to lose and all we do is train as hard so that we won't lose that badly. However, this year, we are slowly climbing to the top with many sports bagging at least a silver. Maybe this is the year where we will start to believe that RH too can start winning all the medals that are offered! Make this year a year that will start a new tradition of winning in RH!

So yesterday was interim crit.. My session was really bad that if I don't work harder, I will get a really bad grade but I am not giving up hope on it! I am gonna start from scratch and this time I am going to make it very AWESOME! There is no point giving up when I am already half way there! This semester will be my best semester yet!

I am so addicted to this song now, all thanks to my roommate! It is so soothing and calming..And Leona Lewis's vocals are DAMN good!

LET HOPE RISE AND THE CONFIDENCE WILL KICK IN (of course, with more models and drawings)

This week is crazy! Glad I am still surviving it so far! Need a lot of mental and physical strength. Lost my phone today which makes matter worst. I seriously need to stop losing stuffs before I start losing myself instead. Yet, everytime I lose something, I always gain other stuffs indirectly that makes me appreciate the people around me more.

Glad Akicon assignment 1 is done! I drew bricks for freaking 4 hours till the point that I think I had a small obsession with bricks after that.. Supposed to be sleeping but woke up after 2 hours thinking about all the things that I am supposed to do but not touching it yet.. So irritating..

Haven't been sleeping a lot lately, or rather say not been sleeping at all these days.. Architecture sometimes seemed to be turning into architorture but when I see the results of my slogging through the night, I always have the sense of satisfaction..

It's the end of second week of school.

Workload is piling up even though it is already a lot to do.

Trying to do time management as efficient as possible, play, work, fun even though sometimes I need to sacrifice sleep just for it.

Been learning how to adjust to the crazy workload plus the fun of learning new things from Lilian Chee.

Starting to love my studio. Hopefully this love relationship will last longer this time.

Akicon submission is on Tuesday but I drew half my room only, I still need to draw another half with all the dimensions and stuffs. It is an interesting module, but we don't have the time to enjoy every bit of it.

Accepted the offer to go to Hanyang University for exchange.

So I guess, I will be in Korea from July until December. How fun and exciting!

It's funny when you see a chain of comments over these kind of post on Facebook wall. First of all, these applications are random and there is a system to getting the results because everytime you go back and refresh the page, you will eventually end up with a different results.

So I got this results, and I posted it onto my wall because I think it was really funny. But the comments that came in were even funnier because everyone is congratulating me in advance for going to get a boyfriend this year! Haha, maybe a Korean dude when I go for exchange programme in Korea. Lolz..

School been pretty awesome even though it is very tiring. I've been being productive for the past one week, the amount of work that I did in a week outweighs whatever that I do in half of the semester last semester. Guess, being in Lilian Chee's studio really make you work your butts off.

Nothing is Impossible

Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible
Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible
I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything
I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

First week of school had past.. Been super busy the past few days.. Spend my 5th night of first week of school in studio..This is the earliest I ever started working for a semester...Need to build up the confidence level and also my presentation skills..

Anyway, another info for you guys, I'm still deciding whether I want to go for it or not because I don't think I can support myself financially...

If you don't know what is SEP, it is Student Exchange Programme. Should I go? Should I not go? I still need to check out a lot of things but timeline doesn't allow me, I need to settle Design stuffs, Akicon drawings and hall stuffs.. So much to do so little time!

But I do really want to go to KOREA as an exchange student!

Welcome back to school and guess what? I am in Lilian Chee's studio. So I am destined to work my butts off this semester with the endless drawings and modellings. I was feeling half happy and a little disappointed when I found out that I am in her studio but now, I think God gave me this opportunity so that I can improve on my design skill since I always pray that I can pull my CAP up. However, I am not giving up on hall life like most of them do, I will be able to juggle between both the architectural life and hall life.

Now that hall is back to full blast mode again, I am so not used to it. There was a queue for the wash basin in the toilet yesterday morning because everyone decided to wake up at 8.30 am to catch their first breakfast in hall. This morning, queueing for breakfast was weird too. I don't remember ever queueing for breakfast last semester.

And School Starts..

Tell me why you're so hard to forget

Don't remind me, I'm not over it

Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth

I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?

What's wrong with my heart?

Shake it off, let it go

Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you

Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside

So today is first day of school.. Lecture is in another 2 hours! I can't believe that school is here again.. Plenty to do! Hopefully I can still blog regularly, blogging is my way of de-stressing..

Love the fact that hall is alive again! Everyone is back so I am not alone in the block.. and thank God for JY for lending me his Netbook or else I will still stay in the room and rot with out internet.