Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Best friends

I feel like I am having a quarter life crisis even though I am way past that age.
So many people over the same weekend asked me the same question,"Can a boy and a girl always just remain as best friends?"



Seriously, just because I have a guy best friend, doesn't mean I have an answer to that question.
Both of us just can:-

1. Do all crazy stuff together without the fear of being judged.
2. Partner-in-crime. Always on for anything.
3. Listening to each other's pointless drama with full attention.
4. Always there to comfort each other.
5. And nobody believes that we are not a couple; no matter how many times we said we are not.
6. Well, at the end of the day, we know ourselves best because friendship doesn't need any approval.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

The Little Golden Brick

A golden brick reminder at a golden time of change such as this.
"For every house is built by someone, but God is the builder of everything."
- Hebrews 3: 4 (NIV) -

The day for the change finally came. It wasn't easy but it wasn't too hard either.
Maybe because I know the people there beforehand, so I can dare say it is easier for me.

However, I find myself talking a lot more than usual. Why do I do that?
These people just seemed to be so interested in my job, the things I do and the things that I love to do.
A change I find so queer in myself is that I am perpetually sharing about myself and my passion.
I wasn't like that in the past, I used to keep to myself most of the time. Just sharing random interesting facts every now and then.
Maybe now, the only difference is I got loads of interesting facts in my head.
The surroundings on Fridays and Sundays will be very very different from now on.

I know it will take some time for me to settle down in this new environment.
I will be struggling, but yet I will keep myself cool and get to know these people.
Early this year, I said to myself, 'I want to be an effective vessel of God no matter where He places me; in S35, my workplace, or anywhere else.'

When He placed me in S35, I gave everything I have to S35 because I always believed that I am there for a reason. Now, there won't be any difference, I will still be the little brick that I promised God I will be because He is the builder of everything and He knows the time and tide for a little brick like me.

I thank God for the experiences and encounters that He gave me so far.
I thank God for the people I met along the way, those that stick around, and those who still make an effort to stay connected to me.

Just keep building the Kingdom of God in the ways that God had placed in me.
Reaching out and being a support to those who needs my help.
A vessel for Christ.
I've been on the receiving end for the past few years, now, it is time that I am the one giving instead.

Sunday, August 24, 2014

CHANGE... ANSWERED part 2!

All these while it is all about me. Doing the things I like, eating the things I crave for, everything is based on my schedule, etc.

Now I think I should change. Doing stuffs for the opposite party instead so that I can see from the other perspective. To understand the other point of view and to get a different revelation.

I have been amazed at how God had answered all my prayers this year and I am still amazed at it.
So much is happening now that it is difficult for me to digest everything but I have to learn to take things one step at a time.

I am loving life, and living life for Christ. ;)

Thursday, August 14, 2014

ANSWERED

It's amazing how prayer get answered so accurately.

The previous post I wrote out my prayer list.
This post I dare say that the prayer is answered.

And I'm gonna welcome myself to a busy working life soon enough but hey, I am super duper happy.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Expecting more and more!

So these days, it seems as if work is overwhelming. However, after I prayed about it yesterday night, I am going to share one that I have a strong desire will happen. SCLD to get another conservation project, be it in Singapore or out of Singapore. I love the vision that my boss has,he gives attention to things most landscape architect do not. I know how my boss is worried despite already submitted and attended so many interviews. I pray that we will get another project that will keep us excited. One simple prayer request. Another exciting project that comes our way!

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Overwork

So after almost one year in the office, I am in a season where I felt I am overworked.
Some days I wake up, I am excited to go to work.
Some days I wake up, I dreaded to go to work.
I find myself going to office earlier and earlier and leaving office later and later each day. Worst of all, I find myself going back on Sundays even!!!

Whose expectation am I trying to meet?
I think mostly it is my own expectations of myself, besides the fact that the client is giving me loads of deadlines also.

How on earth do people OT everyday?
I am so sick of OT-ing. I love my job, wouldn't trade it for anything else in the world, but I just can't understand why do I need to work as if I am 3 persons in one. Can't wait for my carefree weekday nights to come back to me!

Now on a brighter side, I am indeed on a steep learning curve. Everyday I felt as if I am being saturated with new capability, new skill, new shortcuts, new way of management, new discoveries. I love the new growth level but maybe not the rate that I am growing in now.

PS: Landscape Architects still has the best job on earth. Yay to that!

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Disappointed.

Sometimes it makes me wonder.
Why do people, humans in general have trouble understanding each other?
Why is it so hard to tell you people that the way you guys handled the matter just made the situation at home so much worst?

Yeah, everybody is worried, I would be if I were in your shoes, but instead of trying to reassure my family that I will be okay because you guys believe I will, you guys just bang the gong and made the whole Singapore worry about me, which in turn made it worst at home because to them at home, they've asked a million people, nobody could at least say something reassuring to them? So from a few person, to all my friends and family in Singapore? Haven't you thought of whether it might be how you've phrased things to my friends until those who knows I will be okay,as I always would suddenly turned anxious as well? And because they've turned anxious, it made people at home even more anxious since people who initially are not anxious also became anxious?

You guys know very well where I will be and what I am doing the entire weekend.

I stayed alone for more than half a decade already.
The last thing I want is the people at home to worry, and the only thing I expect from you guys is to know that, and to act according to it. Not making it worst for my family at home.

One text message is enough to know what you think of me. Haven't you thought of it being in my shoes instead? Just think of it objectively from my point of view instead. Then the way you phrase your text message to me would also be different, because now, it didn't even show a slightest clue that you've tried to see it from my side.

So much for relying on friends whom I thought understand me.
No wonder sometimes I find myself relying on myself more! Even more these days.

Everybody makes mistakes, I know, I am not excluded from it.
I am sorry because the words I've said have hurt you in a way or another.
I am sorry I didn't express it very well as well.
I really thanked God so many times this week that these people made an effort to find me no matter what it takes.
I thanked God for the family I love more than anything.

Don't even know why am I rambling on this because it is seriously not worth it.
I am more disappointed than angry.
More disappointed in MYSELF than anybody else.
Maybe I got myself to blame to begin with.

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Landscape Architect

I am so blessed. So blessed indeed! For a working environment that enables me to grow and learn under someone who is willing to teach!


I thank you for the passion You've placed in me to be an aspiring landscape architect. I grow to love my job more and more. It might be stressful at times but I thank you that You've placed in me a heart to learn new things, a spirit that is not afraid to make mistakes eventhough it is a big project. I thank you for giving me this opportunity! I am so blessed indeed!

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Mount Kinabalu

The view from above was beyond fantastic! The mountain tops popping out of the clouds! Jaw-dropping beauty, and it makes you wonder and expect more beauty from the Creator.

The climb up to the peak was really a test of endurance of the mind and the legs of course because at a point, even when my legs are willing, my mind told me that "You've already made it here, it is already beyond your limits!".

Well, eventhough I didn't make it to the top of the Low's peak, I was there at the foot (Maybe another 250m vertical distance to go!). And you are wondering why didn't I just climb the rest of the distance?The reason being I got a time to check in because of the Walk the Torq activity that my group had already signed up for. (That is another whole experience in itself!). I know if I go ahead with the vertical distance to reach the summit, I will be late for the activity and might not even be able to participate even though I paid for it already. So I decided to just give myself some time to admire whatever my eyes could feast on.

My goal for the trip this time is really to be able to stand above and conquer my fear of heights. It is amazing to think of the heights I went up and above in the dark alone. Yeah, alone because I lost my group along the way up, so I just went along with whoever that was in front of me. Those vertical drop at the danger zone with only a white rope to help you up. Coming down, I find it to be more interesting and adventurous rather than fear. If you thought that I climbed down, by not looking downwards, you are so wrong! I came down most of the time can't resist turning behind my back and looking down because the view was really fantastic!

It makes me wanna go search out more of these natural beauty and be immensed in it because these tell me of how creative and beautiful my God is. From those little details on the plants on the way up, all the way to the final view at the top of the mountain! He never fails to amaze me.

Psalm 104: 24- 25
How many are your works, O Lord!
In wisdom you made them all;
the earth is full of your creatures.
There is the sea, vast and spacious,
teeming with creatures beyond number-
living things both large and small.